By Deja Vu, I mean that I'm in the exact same place I was exactly a year ago from now. I'm feeling like a loser and I am in the attempts of trying to feel less like a loser, but it's not going so well. I've been at the same attempts now for I think 5 weeks. WTH? Obviously I'm not in the exact same position, but it feels a lot like it.
I haven't blogged in forever since I've lacked a real inspiration and ethusiasm for talking about myself. HA ha. That's really funny. Even I don't think I have anything interesting to say. What have I been doing? Watching True Blood with a gusto of warm mushy gore filled TV viewing lust. I'm also watching the second season of Jersey Shore, which has taken me back full circle to the beginning of this blog, but my PVR has decided to stop recording recent episodes, so I've currently missed that last two episodes. Even the Jersey Shore cast is making more money than I am and they're idiots. I have come to the conclusion that idiots make lots of money. What can I say? I am no genius, but far from being an ape minded idiot. Note: MTV please give me a reality show, where I can either fake a new life, or ruin this one for money and the elusive 15 minutes of fame that will forever plague my life as I spiral into other reality shows and then celebrity rehab as my end of TV demise as the shallow media world further ruins me. That sounds fantastic. So MTV this blog is my official application for a new reality show starring me or as some side line character. MTV Canada, do you need a new intern? You can shamelessly document my employment with you. It will be a whole new scale of Paul, only as a primetime show and not an easy target on MTV Live. Okay, okay, I'm done. Really.
I've also tried to stop watching the news every day. I've found my compassion bone and I cry everytime I hear a tragic story on the news. It doesn't help that CBC has shown Leung's Facebook where they quote all the sad things his FB friends have said to him like 'please wake up' and so on. It sent me on a flood of tears. How shameless is CBC. For all those that have been following the story, he's had surgery. I hope the 18 year old recovers. Not to mention how tragic the situation is for his mother whom has lost her two daughters and husband, and to be concerned about a son who I think is going to pull through. She needs a miracle. Anything. What has she done that her Karma has taken her family away from her?
Just last night when I went to go wash my car, there was a car accident not far from a PCP and Fire Hall. Only to feel deep sadness for the whole accident that hopefully has had a happy ending considering the location and speed that matters most in situations like those. There wasn't a story in the local paper to link to this story.
I've got other tasks to tackle today like the 20 some odd scraps of paper with songs I liked when I heard themand download them if I can find them.
Have a Great Weekend! It's the last one of August.
