Everything Is Coming Up Millhouse

Basically this long weekend is nice. It's nice that I can sleep in one more day. It's nice that I can take my time doing everything. Usually I go to the gym on Sundays hoping I'll get at least 2 days in, although ideally I would like to get in 3 or more. It seems that I would rather spend the day in bed on my laptop for hours. I would also like to watch more movies during the week but I sleep through all of them. What would be really nice is if I could be less tired. I'm only 23. There must be some medical reason for my chronic tiredness. It just doesn't make sense. Maybe its the weather.

It's great that I have friends moving forward in life, even though I think we're all feeling stuck and trying to make the most of it. I'm seeing just how hard it is to get a job be it part-time or full-time right now. Why there is a surplus of commerce and engineering jobs, is beyond my understanding. I'm not regretting my academic choices, but I'm wishing that I would have been more interested in commerce, that way I would only be working one job and probably be making more than I am now working two. It is sad. I have decided to take an online course and test out the waters. I'm being more fickle about how I'm spending my time and what I'm spending my money on when it comes to education. Questions come up like "Can I do this here? Can I do this anywhere I want? Do I want to move? Do I like my choices of where to move? Are there any jobs? How many people will I be competing with? Is there a demand for this?" I never thought about these things when I went to University and now with the market, the recession and the lack of employment for younger people, I'm stuck with what I have, what I want, and how long do I have to wait for it. Typically, this wasn't an issue a couple years ago and now I'm getting slammed with it now. There have been many articles about this widespread trend. Although I do have a friend who has managed to find work, but she does have a Master's. Is that what I need and can I afford it right now? The answer is no I can't afford it. Although I'm sitting comfortably, I'm not sure I'm liking my current options as much as I would like. I made my decisions and now I have to live with them. What I need to work on is my current disappointment and accept things and be content with them. The task at hand is not easy or one I like. There's nothing that can be done about it. All I can do is prepare for when it gets better. Predicting what work there will be when it gets better is difficult to say. It is definitely not easy. I'm hoping my networking skills will land me some opportunity. I also think that right now I have the time to take on my artistic endeavors and maybe, just maybe I can cash in on them. How long does it take to write a book?

I have so many other things to say, but I'm stuck on this and I think I'll be stuck on it for awhile. Maybe next month the mood will be different, but right now I'm bitter, skeptic and deeply entrenched in my thoughts. I had no idea a year from now that it would be like this. I was optimistic and hopeful and buzzing with energy. Now I have none of those things and it's enough to make me depressed. I haven't reached that point yet. I have too much natural anger to keep me out of it. Thank God for it. No I'm not religious, but there aren't too many sayings that really capture the same tone.

Funny. I've forgotten Valentine's Day. Not really, but my avoidance of it has been successful. Once I get to Wednesday, everything should start to clear up. There's nothing better than getting through a bad month and moving on. Why does this month suck so much? Why isn't it going by faster? My V-day plans consist of later today pre-ordering New Moon with my best friend. A turkey dinner which seems odd to have today. I didn't pick it, my mother did, but it is a long weekend. And then I'm catching an early evening showing of a movie with a friend who's girlfriend is half way around the world from here. I'm sure she's having a better time than I am.

I think everything is coming up Millhouse. Finally he can wear his flood pants and not be embarrassed by them. Lemons into lemonade. Although once the flood passes, he will still have short pants that he will be embarrassed of having after. Trust me, I haven't bought my flood pants because they won't be useful after the flood. I think I'll let my pants get soaked too if my feet are already wet.