It's been a nice quiet Sunday for me. I haven't decided what I want to do with my movie review blog. I have seen at least 15 new movies this month and I just don't feel like talking about movies that don't move me. I only watched one movie worth talking about. I watched a matinee of Shutter Island yesterday. I really loved it. I thought it was classic sane meets insane Scorcese and his new modern twist on movies. His craft has really evolved. Taxi is similar to the stuff he's doing now, but the whole cinematography, director of photography and direction of acting has really been fine tuned. Maybe it is his age or the times, but I'd have to say since Gangs of New York, his work has been amazing every time. This is the stuff I like blogging about when it comes to movies, but you know I also watched Nia Vardalos' movie I Hate Valentine's Day, which I enjoyed, but I didn't want to talk about how cheesy it was in some parts. The writing was no where near as good as My Big Fat Greek Wedding. I only want to blog about movies that moved me. I watched Youth In Revolt and I loved it. It inspired me to create an alter ego for writing purposes, but finding the time to work on it for a writing project has been a bit difficult because I work so much and sane people need to socialize once and awhile. Although the movie inspired me, it wasn't something I wanted to blog on. I might just blog about the movies that move me in here, and make some kind of strange blend. I don't think I like esthetics of it. I don't think Shutter Island is for everyone. It's not what I expected. The preview was misleading, but I liked that about the movie. For people who like to see exactly what the preview is, I could see the disappointment for them. The music was overdramatic such as in the beginning. I was thinking 'Are you trying to cause angst in me? Because honestly nothing eerie is happening right now.' It was a bit early to be making a mood. To the point, it was a fantastic movie and I love the actor that DiCaprio is becoming.
To continue the flow, I got into Taking the Stage, which you can catch on MTV.ca's website. There's a lot of high school drama and the kind of things young people say when it comes to relationships. For one, if I were these art students, I think the last thing I would care about is talking about my crush and trash talking other girls. In a few years when they look back at the show, they might regret some of the things they said. I loved the first season, but it had more focus on their future dreams and careers and the new season is entirely focused on attraction. It almost feels like MTV made an Art Performance School Matchmaker show they threw all together to entertain people. It is the beginning of the school year and I'm sure as the months progress, so will their attentions on their goals and dreams and less about the boys and girls they think are hot and want to date. It's different to see it in a movie, but to see real people falling in love and having private moments in front of a camera, I feel like a voyeur on their teens lives and feelings they're having for the first time. Not all private moments are for sharing. If things don't work out, I don't think I would want my emotions documented publicly. It's weird.
This is my last Sunday that I'm going to have like this where I am now. I'm sure I'll have the same kind of Sundays, but I won't have any more like this where I am, and the fact that I cancelled on a friend to milk what's left of what I'm used to. I feel like I'm breaking up with my home. We'll be friends, but we won't be intimate anymore. It will be a memory. I started thinking about all my attachments. Sometimes you know its time to leave, but not just yet, so it's okay to linger awhile longer, and sometimes it is time to leave and staying is only hurting. Attachments always remind me of Eastern philosophy and Stoicism. Everything is impermanent, so we must change our judgements of things. There was an essay question about Alexander influencing the East, but I never had an interest in the question. If I were given the question again, I would have the answer. Stoicism is very similar to Buddhism, Jainism and Hinduism in some ways. It's all about impermanence and that this is not the final stage of life, but a portal into our real existence. One that is all encompassing and not segregated like we have it now, me and you, us and them. It makes me wonder if Up In The Air is right. The only thing holding us down are the things we carry, both physical and emotional. I don't think it's our nature to not have attachments. Humans have a sense of self. It seems impossible to be a conscious being and then to ignore our sense of self because it is an illusion. It feels contradicting to go against everything you know. Sometimes to accept things, it shakes the core of your foundations and we need foundations, otherwise we have nothing. As nihilistic as I am about environmentalism, and politics- since I think "what's the point?"- but I always have a lingering hope that someone will have true intentions, someone will get it right, someone will have strong moral ethics. It's that hope I have that I'm wrong. That my foundations are wrong. I think I can accept my foundations falling for an actualized hope and not something that barrels me over. Like The Road or The Book of Eli, where everything as we know it changes so quickly and all that we have held onto disappears and we have nothing left but to rebuild new foundations. I still don't want to exist if something like that ever happened. If human beings were reduced to the savages that lie in our very core which lie dormant in the hearts of people, I don't want to be there, I don't want to be witness to the complete loss of my hope. Impermanence. This coke manic who really needs help said last week that the only thing that matters in life regardless of what everyone has told you and everything you have learned, is our attitudes. Maybe if it came from someone who wasn't mentally compromised, I might have taken it to heart. It was the most and probably the only intelligent thing that will have come out of that man's head. Attitudes are judgements, but without the proper intention of those attitudes, we can justify anything falsely. Which is why I can't take what this man said to heart, because looking at him, I think that philosophy will become overrun by idiots. The same idiots who believe in relativism. I think I have learned which attachments are worth holding onto and which ones are worth losing and walking away from. The only thing stopping me is the memory of the attachments I've left behind. Some are worth remembering and others are best forgotten. Days like today are worth holding onto, even though it's a collective memory of my many days spent in bed watching TV, movies, reading and being online.
Cheers to all your lazy Sundays.
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